Broccoli cheese soup is weird without the broccoli.

Friends.

Today has been really tough.  Whew. 

I have been a hot damn mess all day.

I was up sick last night.  Something I drank yesterday did NOT sit well and I was up all night long.  Riddle me this, how is it possible that someone who has not consumed real food in 3 whole days can wake up soooooo many times in a night to run to the loo?*  By the time I got into work today I was just done.  I was so tired I was physically shuffling.  I ate another smoothie with another kind of protein powder in it (ISO-1000.  Vanilla.  Meh.) and settled in just as miserable as humanly possible.  Totally over everything.  Freezing cold.  Shaky.  Falling asleep in microsecond bursts when my eyelids happened to touch each other.

The day did get better, but right this second I wanna discuss my evening.

I just had a MELTDOWN over a piece of bread.  Technically, it was 2 pieces.  Buuuuut that's like defensively arguing that two small children beat you up instead of just one.

Story time: In an effort to try to do something other than drink the same water based protein.... thing, I decided to treat myself to some of my second third favorite soup.  Panera's broccoli cheese deliciousness.  I would have to blend the broccoli in, but I was sure it would still be epically amazeballs.  So to Panera I went.  I ordered my soup, eagerly waited, practically snatched the to-go bag out of Lady Panera Worker's grasp and raced home.  I had my soup!  I grabbed my blender, set it up, opened the bag from Panera and PANICKED.  Straight up fucking panicked.  There, on top of my soup, was the bread.  Mocking me with it's lightly browned, mouth-watering-ly crunchy exterior and warm, soft, sourdough center.

I had to call a lifeline.  I literally couldn't even process what to do.

She talked me off the ledge, and I threw them in the trash. **

What the fresh, holy hell?!  Is this real life?  Almost defeated by 1/8 of a french baguette??? 

Not cool. So to combat that DEFCON 3 level of crazy I focus on things that make me smile and stuff I'm looking forward to.  Allow me to give a few examples: being gifted the exact piece of furniture I want for my living room, playing video games with Evan (even though we are far apart),  finding a good protein powder, eating my second third favorite soup in the entire world for dinner, hanging with some of the fram while watching the lovely Sarah Sellers sing tomorrow night, and the fact that this is only for 3 more days. 

I am actually over the hump. 

In closing; thank you guys for letting me whine and reminding me that I actually am doing a pretty good job.  For giving me hugs when I am feeling super fra-gee-lay (it must be Italian) talking me off ledges, lying about what you are eating, and trying to keep your popcorn hidden.  

I leave you with this picture of my bomb-ass soup in my bomb-ass Wonder Woman cup...

... and the hope that this finds you all having a great night.

Love,
Mamy 

* I do not actually want an answer to this riddle.
** I smelled them first.  Deep inhale style.  And, it is possible I licked one... judge if you must.